Love is in the battle

In communicating I receive clarity and release...so here goes.

Its been three weeks since  I have been  back in Barbados,three very challenging,humbling weeks.Challenging because though I may have changed and grown in my spirituality  I have come home to the same if not harsher
circumstances than before,humbling because I have seen what God can do through me and yet I know my present struggles...weaknesses,and I know that they did not suddenly appear they have always been there,dormant .
  But God knew,when I was drawing prophetic pictures and having all of my mountain top spiritual experiences. He knew then what lay beneath,He knew what would still need to be tested and refined and yet He chose me.Out of His love He called me...and that is what I battle with,the knowledge of  the love of God. A knowledge that Paul says is too great for us to fully understand ( Ephesians  3:19).

As I listened to this song I dared to verbalise what I believe I have been feeling now for awhile...how could He?Why does He?It can't be that simple,His love can not be that great.And it hit me that all the resistance I have experienced,externally and in my own mind.....is because I have refused to believe that God loves me as much as He says He does,that when He says something its because He loves me and wants what is best for me...I have been resisting the love of God.


As I listened to the lyrics of this song,all my walls came down,every reasoning and justification that I had just melted away  as I started to receive the truth of God's love.